feeling wordless

there is so much i have to say and somehow i just can't summon the energy to find the right words. i'm frustrated that in the midst of a situation where i'm bursting at the seams with feelings of anger, betrayal, powerlessness and placidity about CF, i'm also silenced. i don't mean to be cryptic and i will be ok, i just want to say that things are brewing and i need time to process. an entry is coming... sometime soon. it is evolving as i'm navigating an experience where CF reminds me that it can change life and plans in what feels like a split second. no warning, no workarounds and honestly no looking back. this is life in all its unpredictable glory and the best we can do is hold on tight for the ride as we swerve around corners and lean on spectacular family and friends to keep us afloat.